November 16, 2021
“First of all…to God be the Glory! I want to thank God for always being a miracle worker and promise keeper. God is truly amazing!
So, all of last week I was stressing heavily; wondering where I was going to get funds, how I was going to pay my phone bill that had been over due for 2 weeks, how I was going to get materials for my clothing line and just so much. I was becoming discouraged that no matter what I do or tried it seemed like there was always an obstacle in the way.
But God has strengthened me over some time to learn how to get into prayer and stop complaining and worrying. Again, I couldn’t help myself because as a human that’s normally what we tend to do in overwhelming situations…we worry. When it seemed like all was against me, I felt like I had to force myself into prayer and let out everything, even the tears.
Can I tell you something? Even strong people cry. I’ve seen my dad and my pastor, literally two of the strongest men in my life, who had moments where they had to let it out. And for the men who are reading this there is nothing wrong with being vulnerable, you are human! You don’t have to be Superman 24/7, though it is in y’all nature, it’s ok to have “a moment”. And for the ladies who are reading this: LEARN TO BE TENDER! Create a healthy environment that allows the man to be a man as well as allowing him to be human too!
BUT GOD! Got with me in my place of isolation with Him; I poured out my heart, literally everything that was on my mind. Mind y’all my account was nearly $-300, my usual check I’d receive I have not seen for nearly 2 & a half weeks; I was literally thuggin’ it out with God. (For those wondering, I am still considered a liability to work a physical job again, every job I land has been nipped with a surgery, a work at home isn’t as ideal due to everyone’s schedules crossing over and I don’t have a private room…just a little sneak peek of my life.)
BUT GOD! He answered my prayers! God really be working: a good friend who I came back around genuinely after a falling out we had, checked on me to see how I was doing after my car accidents. We had began to catch up and I was telling him about my crazy circumstances. He offered to pay my phone bill, which I still didn’t want to ask him to do.
‘Check your account’ were the simple words he said. I was upset at first because he knows how I feel about getting more than I need plus I was already directing him to pay the bill online. Let’s just say everything I had been stressing about was covered; I had a working phone, I had funds to travel to grab supplies to process the client’s order, and my account was positive! To God be the Glory!
The following day, my mom took me to get the remainder of the supplies on her birthday. (Like I was upset because I felt no one was truly supporting me or didn’t seem to care the day before.) BUT GOD! He really worked it out to where the issues I was stressing about, I didn’t have to worry about them because I took it to Abba, my Heavenly Father.
I think about Matthew 6:26-34 KJV, where Jesus basically says the birds don’t sow seeds like how we sow seeds in church, and He questions us and ask if we are any better than the birds. But dwell on these particular verses, Matthew 6:33-34 KJV ‘But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” Glory to God!
I thank God today for blessing me with the people I pray for constantly. Special thank you to my mom and Kevin who saw me through these trials and tribulations. Amen”